This week has been tough...and next week will be even harder. Every single day is just about getting to the end. Ugh. I hate when life is like this. I want to ENJOY life to the fullest, and lately it’s been far from that. I have a pile of things in my head that I need to accomplish in the next week and a half. Honestly, I feel like I can't do it. I know that I cannot do it, but God can. Such a hard thing to just let go of sometimes, but it is all I can do. Tests are piling up like no other this week and next and it is all I can think about. Also, I just want to be done with school... I want to be married to the man God has waiting for me, I want to be a mommy to some sweet, sweet children, I want a beautiful house to decorate, I want a successful career doing whatever makes me happy, I want a strong relationship with the Lord that just shines for others to see. These "wants" consume my mind. I know that I have to go through this first to get to where I so badly want to be someday though. It is a really hard thing to wait, for me anyways.
Well, I have about 3 days of studying due for my test in the morning but I am going to do some yoga, drink some tea, study till I want to be done, clean my room, and call it a night.
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One thing that I learned in college (and I still learn nearly every day) is to be "Okay with temporary". I, too, hate the depression and funk that comes with piles of homework, small dorm rooms, and being impatient for the "real deal" or the next stage in my life where I can say "finally! I'm married!" or "finally! i've graduated...or started my business". It took me a long time to realize that the irritating feeling of temporary is still FULL of God's blessings and full of moments to love life and show love to others.
ReplyDeleteI hope that this week, during all the crap you have to do, that you feel a peace and comfort, and that you take advantage of whatever small moments God provides you with.
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