How Is It So?

That...

Last I checked it was only August...hmph. Well, I suppose the coming of December brings a few good things.

The end of the semester.

Christmas break.

Christmas presents.

Time with family :)

Snow.

The coming home of a certain boy man currently in Afghanistan.

I am certainly most excited for the latter of these 6. And also. Eight days after December is over I will be 21, which is also worth being excited about. 

The Greatest

Over the weekend I watched a new movie called The Greatest. It was great. I didn't know anything about it when I started watching so I had no expectations. Those are always my favorite. I don't really want to give it away (for all of the 3 people that read my blog) but it is a beautiful love story. It made me cry, but it also warmed my heart in an odd way. It think that if I were in her situation, I would do the exact same thing.

So, go rent it from RedBox and fall in love with it like I did. 

Photo Love

Muh desk space

window view

girl time

cloudy day window view

Just missing Mel and Ash

Dress up with Grandma

the docks

B & D pic

Blessed to have this view 

Thanks for this one, Hal.

These are just a few photos from the last couple of months. I don't usually post many, but these were begging for some viewing.

A Little "happy" for the day

Last night i was blessed blessed blessed to be able to spend hours, seriously hours, with a couple of great girlfriends talking about life and sharing God. It is so sweet to have the opportunity to do this openly. I take it for granted quite often but many people in the world are not allowed such a privilege. Afterwards I went to a worship service on campus. I always try to pull away at least ONE thing even if I find the lesson is not necessarily pertaining to what I am going through at the time. The speaker told a cute little story about a boy and a sailboat he made. He lost the sailboat and found it in a store window one day. He went inside and told the man at the counter that that was his boat. The man told him he was wrong and that it was not his boat but he could buy it if he wanted. The little boy knew that boat was his, because he made it. So the next day the little boy came back and grabbed the boat out of the window display and took it to the counter. He sat it up there along with some money. He told the man that it was his boat. The man gave him the boat after accepting the money. While walking away, the little boy said to the boat " you are twice mine. I made you and I bought you".

WHOA! that story gave me chills when I heard it. That is EXACTLY what our God has done for us. He made us, and he bought us!!! That should make us feel so loved, and wanted, because we are. well, I just really enjoyed that little story, hope you do too!

time?

I haven't had an ounce of time to blog lately. and that is okay with me. school has been as busy as ever and life is crazy. i'll get back on it over thanksgiving break. i am so looking forward to this upcoming week. i only work a few of the days towards the end of the week and i am beyond excited to spend time at home with my family. im so lucky to be able to do this. see ya next week.

Saddest Halloween

I am quite aware of the unavoidable fact that life can only be so great for so long until it gets hard again. It is a cycle that I've come to accept and know well. As much as I wish that life would always be as simple as afternoon drives and pretty sunsets, I appreciate the hard times because I always grow closer to my Lord. I have to really try to be positive though. This is hard for me, as it is for most anyone I am sure. I could easily be Debbie Downer and bring everyone else around me along with me but I have to focus on the positive.
My dear friend, ex-boy friend, and only boy I've ever really loved is in the Army and was home recently on R&R after a minor injury. We had the chance to hang out quite a bit while he was home for the last two weeks. We have a relationship that I won't even try to explain because not even we understand it. But all I can say is that I love him with more of my heart than I've ever loved anyone else. His feelings for me are even stronger. I was able to be with him at the airport on Halloween until he departed. It was such a weird, weird feeling. You see it in the movies, you watch it on the news, and you hear it on the radio but when you are the one saying "goodbye" it sends emotions through you like you didn't even know existed. There were more emotions and thoughts going through my mind than I could even sort through. It was almost fake...like I could go on with my every day to day tasks and pretend that he isn't really fighting a war. He isn't really having to sleep on the ground in the dirt, night after night. He isn't really jumping out of helicopters. He isn't really finding bombs. He isn't really being shot at. But deep down I know all of those things are true. It hits me at very unexpected times. He is in my mind all day, every day, but it is out of no where when I actually get sad, and cry without any control over it.

This is what I'm waiting for*

I've never written a blog so personal and full of emotions before. It's not something I intend on doing often but  I was starting to go a little crazy with no one to just babble about it all too. So thanks for bearing with me, if you got this far.

loves.